she moves. shes moved.

my very good friend, Debora was terribly upset.

why? because she couldnt go to her brother’s wedding?

and why?
because she says, ‘No MONEY!!’

i was like WTH!!!

no money cannot go to your own brother’s wedding meh??

then she explained….

need to buy dress, shoes, put on make up and go to the hairdresser to do the hair, buy a gift…

‘dont you have any dress?? your wedding dress!! you can wear them!’ (her wedding dress is very simple yet elegant. its more like an evening gown actually)

then she shows gestures that she cant fit into them anymore.

ouuhhh!! i remember!! i just bought a dress!! she can borrow mine!! punyalah excited then i remembered mine was a beach dress.. bummer…

i wanted to help this lady. i really do. but what can i do?? the last time i asked, they dont sell any evening dresses suitable for the wedding here. i dont mind giving her my accessories or my shoes(but her shoe size damn small. size 4 leh!! tskkk..)

but anyways, her bro’s wedding this evening and she is at work – to earn more money.

i am bored…. so here goes nothing…

1. In one sentence, explain yesterday:
bumpy ride.

2. What made u smile today?
toothy botak baby…chochoooo cute!!

3. What were u doing tis morning at 8a.m.?
` waiting for the driver – late as usual.

4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago?
` showering.

5. Something that happened to u in 1985?
` history was made. a lady became mom.

6. Last thing someone else said to you?
` noooo…dont go back to Cingapure

7. What was ur answer?
` nooo…i want to go home!!

8. Worst thing currently on television:
` hmmmm…

9. What was in e-mail today?
`new appointments.

10. How many different beverages have you drank today?
` cafe, larenja fanta, larenja juice, agua

11. What is ur favorite part of the day?
` those moments i snuggled in my bed.

12. Your current To-do list?
` work.

13. where is your bestie right now?
- eating great food somewhere… heehehehehe

14. What color is ur toothbrush?
` oren

15. What are u wearing right now?
` errmmm.. towels.. heeee..

16. Any plans for Friday night?
` trip to Barra!!.. either that or dinner with Rafael and the guys.

17. Least favorite place to shop.
` Angra town. boring and expensive. stores open during office hours. close on public hols…

18. things u bought today?
` peixe de filet

19. Last gift you received?
` beaded necklace

20. Who gave you that?
` Patty

21. What made you sad today?
` leaving great ppl in sucky office..

22.What will make you happy?
- going home!!!

23. Beauty is:
` ME. huahahahhaha…

24. Describe your key chain(s):
` It says
Sexy
Intelligent
Naughty
Generous
Loving
Exciting

25. Where do u keep ur change?
` pockets if i have one.

26. Are u happy with ur life?
` can be happier.

27. What are u thinking now?
` HOMe!!.

28. Person u trust the most?
` Mom

29. The song of the day?
` We just don’t care…
“Lets go to the Park..
I wanna kiss underneath the stars…
lalalalalallalalalalala…
lets make love……..
lets go where they might discover us…
lets get lost in lust…
we just dont care…
nanananananannaa….”

nothing makes you a more abled person than being forced to live overseas – alone.

and nothing makes you learn faster than being independent, having no other options and/or alternatives to do something that you hate or gross you.

for the many years in my life that i helped mom in the kitchen, i had never scaled a fish. fish scales are gross. its slimy and gross. i hate touching fish with scales. especially live ones. geli tak tahan!!! its ironic i know, for i’ve been to many fishing trips with dad and you have to touch the fish when you caught them. still geli larh… i always ask the bro to help me with my fish. (neways, understood what i’m trying to say? cause i dont when i reread them)

many times when mom told me to scale a few, i’ll make some excuses or just said ‘tak nak geli larh..‘ it works all the time. of course, i’ll have to bear with mom’s nagging. but thats better than having to touch the fishes’ scales.

or most of the time, daddy did the scaling. not that my mom dont know how. its just that. he did them. especially if its fishes that he caught or if its a big big enormous fish.

but today, i had no choice.

we’re suppose to have bbq at the beach as a farewell party for Roy and perhaps also to us who are going back to singapore next week and the week after. and of the food to be served are fish.

since our ‘Mother’ dear gonna cook, i’m tasked to clean all those that needs cleaning, ie: prawns, sotong and fish. FISH…. i thought the tio fishmonger already scaled the fish. but noooo… its still there!

“macam mana nak siang ikan?!” i asked someone.
“pakai penyiang ikan lah,” answered that someone. pandainya!!

i just cannot bring myself to touch those fish. so i put them in the fridge and continued chatting.

but then, suddenly i remembered. i have a responsibility. that is to scale the fish. so no choice larh i scaled the fish. took out the gills and the bloody stomach.

and then… it turned out to be quite fun… huahahahha… not the scaling part. but the taking out the guts and gills. blood spattered everywhere. its yucky but kinda fun larh. i cant describe. but yeah… hmmmmm…

now that i can siang ikan already, the husband(to be) and i no need to eat at KFC or MacDonalds everyday. heh.

remember Westlife? i love Westlife. i was crazy over Westlife. beautiful people. beautiful songs. and i still love Westlife. but what a pity. i’ve lost most of my Westlife CDs. i want them back!! especially their first album. the one with Swear it Again and Moments, More Than Words, Fool Again. Love those songs. Actually, i love all the songs in the first album. But my favourite is Queen of My Heart(not the 1st album). and its stuck in my head. not that i mind.

few years after going crazy over him, i found out my favourite westlife member is gay. now, he shouldnt be singing Queen of Heart should he?

i’m disappointed. very disappointed.
with lotsa things.
especially with myself.

i can never get the right words out.

stupid.
bloody stupid.