she moves. shes moved.

so much to say, so little words.

i just want you to know how i appreciate the little things you did for me.

the morning messages, the random calls, the assurances, the hands holdings, little hugs, my favourite kiss on the forehead, snuggles and cuddles, the on and off baby talks.

the time spent sending me home. the money spend on my dinners and snacks and movies and many other miscellaneous stuffs that you dont have to.

the gym sessions, swimming, cycling all those that i love and not so keen to do.

the massages, the initiative to meet my parents, camping with my friends, the picnics.

the love, the kisses, the tingles, the singlet……

all the little things that you do, got me so in love with you…..

one year ago, right now, i would be on Varig Airways on my way to Brazil from Germany.

i would have been sleeping in the small old Aeroplane. its not even a Boeing.

i could have been writing in my diary describing the bitter sweet experience of the journey. most parts are exciting. and many parts were lonely.

i have no idea what to expect.

no idea what the customs would be like.

i was already missing everyone. even you who confessed the day before.

but i’m also looking forward to the adventures that lies ahead.

i had two seats for me, by the window so that means i can lie down. i looked out of the window, wishing to see the stars but there was nothing. we were amidst the clouds.

my ex-boss was sitting directly behind me, and i could hear him working on his laptop and stop to think once in awhile.

he really is a great boss who really took care about the welfare of his subordinates.

you see, i was coughing and went i got up to use the toilet, he had called the stewardess to prepare me a drink. it was on my ‘table’ when i got back.

‘for you, to soothe your throat’ he told me.

so kind of him, i was touched, i almost teared.

it felt like i was in good hands.

with the photos of my family in my hands, i fell asleep.

but not for long cause i’m worried.

i brought so much food i wasnt sure if i could pass through the customs. should i declare? i have no idea. and as always, boss came to the rescue.

actually, i dont remember much about that.

and as we move on, we were flying over mountains and terrains. i have no idea where i was.

and i saw small towns. farms. many many farms. it was a wonderful sight.

all the while wishing i’m sharing this wonderful view with someone.

i havent mentioned the crew, have i?

they wasnt very friendly. or maybe its just me. they get along very well with olived-skin people but i felt a little ignored. maybe they dont speak english. but then, i heard one of them talking to my boss. maybe i’m asian. but i heard from my brasilian friends that brasilians dont look at skin. i dont know…

and i’m kinda surprised that they look rather sloppy. their uniforms wasnt really neatly pressed and their hairs are all over the place. maybe its because it became alil fuzzy since its been awhile we were on the air, being a 13hour journey, but i compare to our local airlines…… alah nevermind. they’re of different leagues.

i’ve typed the above during lunch at work. and as of now, i should have arrive brasil, pass the customs, where my luggage was the last to appear and it turns out they suspect that my luggage contained drugs, which was in fact the hundreds and hundreds packets of chilli sauces.

i should be on my way to Hotel Porto Real, in Angra, Rio DeJaneiro.

by this time, my handphone is almost flat, and i’m already missing home…

and time flew so fast that now, i can only reminisce the bitter sweet memories of Brazil.

i miss it though. if only i’m there with all that i love.

while waiting for the adventure to start, i kill my time by making something i’ve been wanting to loooong ago, ever since i saw a Celebrity Chef made it on tv. it was very simple really. and my mom love it so much that she decides to make it on hari raya.

its soooo simple that all you need are cornflakes, chocolate and caramel and some butter. the chef also add some golden syrup but i omit that out cause caramel and chocolate is already a sweet combination.

and so after melting the chocolate, caramel and butter together over double boiler, all you need to do is crush the cornflakes a little and coat the melted ingredients over the cornflakes. and place them in papercups. and voila!! done!!

if you wonder how it looks like, take a peek!!

i cant wait wish for the time when i can actually see my feet without bending.

some people call it assets. i said liability.

sometimes i hate it, sometimes i LOVE it.

i’m fickle.

its a great obstruction!!

i can never find a buttoned blouse that’ll fit perfectly. NEVER.

and no matter what i wear, its obscenery…

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…….

my prayers were answered.

you said the loveliest sweetest thing. took off my uncertainities.

relief.

and once again you’re right. it takes two.