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the weather has been so horribly humid that the water on your skin evaporates almost immediately after taking a cold shower. bleagrgghh… humidity been clinging to me like skin and i feel so rimas!!!
you get the short-lived moment of unrimas when it rained for a while and then you dread the time when the rain stops as the humidity level increases. April April April. we thought April’s Fool only a day in the calendar but it lasts the whole month! i slept with the fan on full blast. usually the minimal power would already send me under the blanket. i went full blast without blanket. and if i’m living alone or have my own room, i’ll go nude (wooo.. i’m feeling kinky. its the PMS!!!). hah!!
anyways anyways… updates on work-which-i-dont-really-love-nor-hate-but-have-issues-with-the-boss. its not just me okay. i thought its me but its not. its him! really. imagine you have to report to him whenever you make a move. like you need to ask the client or vendors something, tell him first. why whats wrong. bloody hell. seriously for a very minimal stuffs, i’m sure its alright to bypass him. and reporting to him is especially difficult when he disappears almost every 5minutes for a smoke break or whatever. oh if you want to email, you have to send to him first, where he’ll survey the contents for a faux or something. honestly how productive can that be? nope guys, CC is not enough.
and he has this irritating sudden shoutouts full of shits. REALLY!! when he made a typo or he clicked on the wrong thing and/or even playing games and he missed a turn and/or he watched porn and was terribly disappointed he’ll loudly exclaimed with his irritating voice ‘DOUBLE SHIT. TRIPLE SHIT.’
urghhhh…… i can go on and on about this guys and bleargh its just not worth it to have him ruining my sunday. sigh….
actually i didnt want to blog about that. the fingers just jumped around the keyboards making those weird whining. what i wanna say is, i finally got my new container office where only myself and nadira will occupy it. whooooohooooooooooooooo……………… just us enjoying our little cosy office.
Watching her draw ignites me to do the same. But in reality, thats just not my cup of tea. Like everyone else, i would love to know how to draw. Unfortunately, thats just not my talent.
I have no problem visualising but i have extreme difficulties to lay my creations on paper. It drives me crazy all the time. Like now, i have this 3D alphabets going on in my mind and i just cant seem to scribble them out. i tried as i was drafting this in my mind. Was that the consequences of not concentrating? i thought its all about the flow? Let it flow… or maybe i’m just distracted.
But to balance out the negative curvy ions of drawing, i think i do better with words. although i’m not that great with them either. i still have difficulties remembering between nouns and verbs and them adjectives. yup that bad. plus i have limited vocabulary but its definitely better than drawing.
writing is where i relief lots of boiling fumes in me. i still owe a private diary exclusive for lashing out all my grievances. romantically, politically, self-loathy all of it, you name it.
the thing is, i knew some people who cant draw but they just go for it and it came close to what they were expecting. and its awesome. its not gorgeous but you understand the outcome. i call that brave. get your chosen type of writing stationery, visualise, draw. tadaaaaaaaa……
me, i can only visualise.
maybe i can call mine absent art.
a simple dinner,
off to a peaceful setting.
joyous moment.
just you and me.
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i’m missing my girlfriends. when can we meet again? its been such a while. miss you ladies…….
as of today, i proudly declare that i’m gonna stop hating some people.
hating is definitely very exhausting. especially if you have to face them everyday.
therefore now, i do not hate and lead a less miserable life.
i’m definitely happier.
i feel ummm.. wiser.
why do you have to fall at all??…..
i just broke our full length mirror.
i’m glad i’m not chinese or i’ll be deemed to SEVEN years of bad luck.
phew!!
i miss the mirror already…..
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in the meantime, i’m getting the flu bug – again!!!!
urghhhh been down and out the whole bloody weekend.
wasted!!!
no thanks to that immediate superior of mine.
THANK YOU FOR THE HEAPS AND HEAPS AND JARS AND JARS OF HARMFUL COCKTAILS THAT YOU FREELY SHARE WITH US THE OTHER DAY!! I AM BLOODY GRATEFUL. IDIOT!!
seriously, if you have to smoke when it rains, have a thought for us who dont. if you have to smoke, if its a matter of life and death to you, i’m sure you dont mind getting all wet. if you wanna have your life cut short, dont drag us all along!! IDIOT!!
and if you start sniffling or coughing, i dont wanna hear that i am the one to spread the virus. afterall, YOU started it. IDIOT!!
