April 15, 2009
too many things been going on.
rumours flying around.
atlas, im still here.
heartbroken. was really looking forward for a new environment.
and people kept telling,
“Well, the most important thing, you still got your job.”
and i wonders, is that really the most important thing?
its a sad sad situation right now.
i dont even know where to begin.
seems my parents’ prayers have answered.
my rezki murah.
and InsyaAllah, kalau rezki murah, i might get to get out of this hell hole.
April 8, 2009
Many months back, I’ve vowed myself to be a more observant blogger. I don’t want to blog about my emotions all the time. I want to be more meticulous on my blogging with more interesting stories to tell, mainly about my observations.
It might be difficult for me to describe what I observed. Contrary to my bookworm nature, my vocabulary can be pretty limited. Blame it on my very short memory span. Hehe.. But I will not prevail. The choleric in me believe that I’m a fighter. I’ve always been except that I’m lazy.
I’ve long known that I can do whatever and whenever I want. The thing is, the phlegmatic in me has been quite strong. I procrastinate a lot. It kept holding me back. There is too many things to do! And sadly, I did nothing.
As I am typing this down, I’ve had ideas of what I’m going to do, but implementing it, might take awhile. First thing on my list, is to narrow down on what I really want to do with my life.
Life, literally and the profession that I might choose.
I’ve long known that deskbound job is not my ‘cuppa tea’. I have super short attention span and most of the time, i’m distracted, making me unproductive. I need to be on the move although I might appear to be too lazy to move (but I’m changing that deadly sin).
So, what is it that I would really want to do?
If I were to answer the above question honestly, all I want to do is to have tones of adventures. I fancy being in the wild, explore the vast of the forest, climbing mountains, just being with the nature, in the nature, within nature. All of which, I have yet to do. Although I might have a small problem, going to the toilet might be difficult for me. I’m not that fussy, not all the time, but when it comes to really huge business, I need my hose and tap water. Toilet papers doesn’t work for me.
When I bring myself back to reality, all those mentioned above, needs money in order to have that dream to come true. And for that money, I have to work. Now, working is not that difficult. But finding the one that fits me perfectly, that’s a whole different story.
Document controlling, was lucrative. But I find it totally boring. And the hundreds of papers I’m dealing with gave me panic attacks and large amount of stress. Document controlling are not just about filing ok. Its controlling papers! And papers are my ultimate weakness! Who remembers me filing in school? I lost heaps of them!!
2009 has been a difficult year thus far. Financially, I’m still coping very well, but emotionally, I’m lost. I’m lost with all this clutters. I’m still searching. I don’t want to drag myself to work forever. I need to find my niche.
It’ll be for awhile. I’m sure I’d find what I want eventually. I’m searching. Hard. Very very hard. And this time, I’ll make sure. I promise myself, I’ll pray to HIM, that I’ll truly find what I really really want. 2009 will end great, with me striving for what I believe.
Three cheers for Aisha!!
November 13, 2008
1.Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
-perhaps.
2. When was the last time you felt unbearably guilty?
-most weekends. Always.
3. How is life going for you right now?
-so far, so blessed.
5. Who can you tell everything to?
-Yushalinkin for sure. Fazli.
8. Last words you spoke?
-Good Morning!!
9. Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with an S?
-Yes. Siti Mother, Siti Atek.
13. How do you feel about gay marriage?
-I don’t oppose the life they choose, but as open as I am, gay marriage is just wrong.
14. What is the next concert you’re going to?
-non that I planned of. I’ve never been to any concert.
17. Can you play guitar hero?
-I wanna try playing, definitely.
18. Do you like someone?
-I still have a crush on Johnny Depp
20. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
-Definitely warm. But I don’t mind the cold once in a while.
21. Is any part of your body sore?
-constipated, no shitting. Can’t give my shit to the toilet that’s waiting… haha..
22. Who is your last text from
-Metal
23. What is the last movie you watched in theaters?
-Madagascar2. ‘who says penguin cant fly?’
24. What do you currently hear right now?
-tremors. Crane tremors.
25. Who did you last share a bed with?
-Siti Nuratek
26. What do you think of the person you took this from?
-acquaintance.
27. How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
-Hopefully before 30, when its easier to breed. Heh.
28. Would you rather watch football or baseball?
-Football. But I’d like to understand baseball to enjoy baseball.
29. Missing someone right now?
-Obviously.
30. What’s the strangest fact about you?
-hmmm..
I love green (colour) but totally hate drinking any green concoctions such as fruitade(especially fruitade! but will still drink it if you serve them at your house), except green apple juice.
And I don’t like strawberries, hates strawberry flavoured ice cream. but love strawberry flavoured milk.
31. Where is your number one person on your friends list?
-Yushalinkin, definitely.
32. Do you feel like dancing?
-all the time J. Bila nak karaoke??
33. How much money do you have on you?
-THOUSANDS!!! Kaya aku. Amin. Haha!
(I’m jesting!)
35. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
-hmmmm… guess who?! Haha!!
36. Do you burn easily in the sun?
-thankfully, NO. I love the SUN. LOVE THE SUNNNNN!!!
Oh Mr. Sun. Sun. Mr. golden sun. Please shine down on me…..
37. Do you speak another language other than English?
-Yes.
38. What made you happy yesterday?
-One little phone call.
October 30, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hey hey!!
guess what??
i’m already 23!!
that is TWO and THREE!!!
whoaaaaaa…….
i sure dont feel that old. i mean come on!
why is age such a biggie?
its just numbers! and i have problems with figures.
and figures been adding everywhere!!
age, weight, GST, chocolates, blah blah blah, go figure!!
the only thing not adding is my BANK ACCOUNT and my SALARY!!!
sheeshh….
hahaha!!
anyways,
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
and happy birthday to me!! hehehe
October 14, 2008
